It’s hard to put into words what this last year has meant to me, but I’ll do my best.
When you came into existence, you made my dream of being a mother a reality. For that, I’ll be eternally grateful. There is nobody else that I could imagine learning how to be a parent with… you were so easy going from day one and forgiving of my many, many rookie mistakes. We ebbed and flowed together, cried together, snuggled and then cried some more. You seemed to know that I was doing my best even when I felt like I was falling apart which, sweet boy, is one of your many gifts. Your knowing eyes will always offer comfort to those who need it most.
The first moment I met you I knew I’d met the love of my life. It was actually spectacular the love that filled my heart in that moment and I could hardly breathe because of it. Since that moment you have continued to take my breath away with your every stare, sound and movement. You’re perfect in every single way even in moments of sheer imperfection.
We’ve had our struggles, you and I… BOY have we ever! Feeding you was a task from the very start because of your veracious appetite. You get this from both your mom and dad, I think. You’re loud and opinionated and let us know exactly when something displeases you (like when we won’t let you play with power chords) but you’re also gentle and sensitive and know exactly when to crack a big smile to let us know you’re pleased as punch. Your timing is impeccable, baby boy.
You bonded quickly with your animal friends who have diligently stood guard over you since you arrived home and now find humor in pulling their hair and tails. They don’t like it, but they let you do it because they’re yours and they know you’re learning to play. I can’t wait to see you run and jump with your puppy friend!
Everyone who meets you falls instantly head over heels in love with you – I think this is because you have a disarmingly charming face – you’ll never have trouble making friends, sweet boy. Just like your daddy. This was one of my many wishes for you because good friends are important to have and hard to find. You have four aunties who love you like you’re their own because they love your mama and have been such important friends to her. Make friendships for life, son… you’ll never regret it.
Your first word was “Mama” and I’ve never heard anything more sweet in my life. I campaigned hard for it and I know you knew I wanted that. We’ve spent so much time together this year… well, all of our time. Like every waking moment and let’s face it, lot’s of sleepy moments, too. I’m not sure what to do without you at my feet all day or needing me in some way now that I’m back to work.
This has been the hardest year of our lives, my dear, and we survived it. You’re the best thing to every happen to your daddy and I – we wished for you for so long and it was worth every ounce of hope and prayer.
On your first anniversary of your first trip around the sun, I hope that you can feel how loved and blessed you are. We certainly feel the love as your parents and every one has been so good to us because of you. I have so many dreams for you but most of all, I look forward to finding out what your dreams are and how I can help you accomplish them and succeed in life in the ways you want to.
We love you so, so very much, my love. Happy Birthday.